Well how about that?

So.... in an attempt to be thorough I scheduled myself to show up for a fetal echocardiogram. Ya know..... just to give myself something to obsess about. I knew I'd be doing it, but I wasn't prepared to feel as hormotional as I am feeling.

I called Sean's cardiologist and very matter of factly explained who I was, why I was calling and asked for an appointment. Very stoic like. The receptionist was lovely and said she'd speak with Dr. Greene, the tech and call me back to schedule the appointment. No problem and I went about my business.

And then.... my phone rang. "Mrs. Scott? It's (insert receptionists name). I'm calling to schedule the fetal echo for you......... "

And with that my heart sank. We scheduled it for May 17 and when I hung up the phone my eyes started to well up. I immediately felt the same way I felt 3.5 years ago when we learned about Sean's heart defect. I was terrified. I'm feeling that way again today. I truly wasn't expecting to feel so anxious and I was totally caught off guard. Especially since I haven't felt anxious thus far.

Right now, at 19 weeks and some change, baby # 3 is healthy. Things are measuring the way they're supposed to be measuring. I have to remember that.