Trust

That's what my little man has for me. Sean hates bath time. I don't know if it's the naked part, the wet part or a combination of both, but he HATES it. Every bath for the last four months has been complete with screaming until he turned blue and ending with complete exhaustion for both of us.

Last night I decided to try something new. I took a bath with him. I sat in the warm water and Rob handed Sean to me. At first I just kind of caressed him with a wet washcloth and then I started to submerge him. He started to whimper, but I was able to reassure him. I was able to get him completely wet & washed. He didn't scream once. Amazing!

The whole time, he looked into my eyes. It was a surreal kind of love that I felt from him. I felt his trust and instantly melted. My little man trusts me. He trusts that I will make everything better.

After he was clean, I let him stay in my arms and just spoke to him while I spilled warm water over him. He was so relaxed.

Then I swirled him in the water and sang to him. He smiled & laughed. It was the first time in four months that my son enjoyed a bath. After we were done, I called Rob to come take him out of the bath & wrap him in a towel. I showered and got out.

Yesterday was Sean's 4 month birthday. I can't believe he's 4 months old already. In so many ways he's very much like a newborn and in others he's like an old man. I made the mistake of looking at pictures of Meredith from when she was 4 months old and made myself quite depressed. Meredith wasn't doing extraordinary things, but she was doing more than Sean is currently doing. I know I shouldn't compare my kids, but it's hard. I told a friend last night that if I wasn't always waiting for him to be behind, I probably wouldn't be so concerned about it. If he didn't have down syndrome, maybe I wouldn't worry about it so much. Who knows?

He's doing wonderfully. In just the last few weeks he's holding his head steady and babbling up a storm. I'm so thrilled that he's holding his head steady.



Here's how I keep Meredith involved





Meredith sings



Happy 4 months to my sweet baby boy