Officially full term today

I am officially full term today. Sean is more than welcome to come anytime he wants now. I'm actually getting tired of people telling me to "be patient", "he'll come when he's ready" and that other jazz. This pregnancy has been nothing, but hard for me. It has been nothing, but hard on my marriage. It has taken away from my ability to move, sleep, enjoy time with Meredith, enjoy time with Rob & most importantly..... it has impacted my ability to take time for myself.

Between the pain, heartache & constant doctors' appointments, I feel like I have nothing left. No more energy. So yes.... I am ready to give birth. I am ready to have this kid as soon as possible. I'm anxious and nervous, but quite frankly I'm just done.

I don't even get to say "as long he's healthy......." because he's not. I don't get to have a normal delivery. I don't get to have a healthy child after all is said & done. I don't get to pretend that I do either.

I know that people mean well, but it irks me.

Dear little man:

Anytime you're ready to make your appearance, I'll be eagerly awaiting it. Will you come if I promise you a pony? How about candy & toys?

While I'm overjoyed with your seemingly amazing amount of flexibility & muscle tone, I'd be even more overjoyed to witness it in person. Come out & amaze everyone else too.

Please please please come out NOW!!!!

Love,
Mommy