I've always been told that when life hands you lemons you make lemonade. But what if all you really wanted was a really big glass of iced tea? What do you do then? Sure you could just add the lemon to your iced tea, but first you'd have to have the iced tea.
My heart aches. My heart aches so badly that it's hard to contain. I am so scared of the unknown. I am scared I won't be able to love him or care for him. I am so scared that I will distance myself from him to ensure that Meredith's life isn't disrupted.
Sleep brings no solace for me. No matter how hard I wish & hope for it. I keep praying that the test results were wrong. When I lay my head down all I want is to wake up from this nightmare. Alas, that never happens for me.
I wonder what he will look like. I wonder how delayed he will be. I wonder what physical challenges he will have. I wonder how I will cope. I wonder how I will teach him right from wrong.
I just wish July could come already. I want this guessing to be over.
My intention this week is to celebrate Mother's Day as the mother of 2. He is my son and I will celebrate being his mother.
you are his mother and you deserve to celebrate being a mom of 2. I hope that you find some peace soon.
ReplyDelete